Monday, November 20, 2017

Dial H for Heroine 10


Our second transformation.  Told you John wouldn't just be becoming Supergirl/Shieldmaiden. :)

I'm writing the names of the heroines John becomes in bold, by the way, as a nod to the old Dial H for H.E.R.O. comics, because I think I remember them writing the hero names in bold.  Even if I'm writing, though--and it's entirely possible, maybe even probable, that I am--it seems like a very comic bookish thing to write superhero names in bold.

~Heather

Sunday, November 19, 2017

Humans of the Great Shift - Mario


Probably not the same as this Mario.

Probably.

~Heather

Diary - Doc Heather's Miraculous Cure-All Elixir


This picture's from Monday, when I was feeling decidedly awful.

I'm feeling much better today, thankfully.  I seem to be pretty much over whatever it was I had.  It was nasty but mercifully short-lived.

Saturday, November 18, 2017

Dial H for Heroine 9


This was a fun one to make.  I made the image for this caption by stitching together the two images below and adding some tweaks of my own:


It was kind of a fun change of pace from what I usually do. :)

~Heather

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Wednesday, November 15, 2017

Humans of the Great Shift - Andy


Natural hair is a big deal.

Thanks to everyone who's offered me well wishes. :)  I'm still sick, but I think I'm starting to get better.  I likely have either the flu or step throat; I'm not sure which.  I'm taking antibiotics in case it's the latter.  Either way, I should be all better in a few days.

Monday, November 13, 2017

Under the Weather

I have a cold or the flu or something.  I just went to proofread Dial H for Heroine 7, and I couldn't focus on it at all; I'm feeling pretty feverish.  I'll try to get it up for tomorrow, but I think I need to take it easy tonight.

Saturday, November 11, 2017

Dial H for Heroine 6


"Dial H for H-E-R-O" is a concept with wonderful TG potential, but in its long history, there have been very few examples of the Hero Dial causing its user to become a member of the opposite sex.  There was one case of gender-bending in a series from 2003, one very brief MtF transformation (and a few FtM transformations) in a series from 2012, and one case of gender-bending from a Superboy and the Ravers comic from the 90s.  And that's it, as far as I know.

This series is my attempt to correct that, and write the definitive TG Dial H story. ;)

~Heather

You can follow this and my other series on my series page.

Diary - Pivot Point

(This is going to be long, so I'm not even going to bother trying to cram it all into a caption.)

As a very young child, I played mostly with girls.  Girl cousins, girl neighbors, girl children of family friends, girl classmates in preschool.  But that changed around the time I reached kindergarten.  Kindergarten age is when girls and boys begin to segregate themselves into girl-only and boy-only play groups; and because I was perceived to be a boy, the girls I'd once played with began to abandon me.  They wanted nothing to do with me, because I wasn't one of them.  I was a gross, annoying boy (even if I didn't behave anything like a boy).  For the next several years, I was caught in an uncomfortable dynamic, where I wanted to play with girls in elementary school, or hang out with them in middle school, but they didn't want to have anything to do with me because I was a "boy"; while boys, meanwhile, didn't want to have anything to do with me because I didn't act like a boy.  I was often bullied for being "gay," which was the kiss of death in a small-town elementary school in the late 80s and early 90s.

Things got even worse in the seventh grade, when I moved out of state and lost the few friends I'd managed to make.  And in high school, there was the added baggage of girls assuming that I only wanted to hang out with them because I had a crush on them.

Being rejected by girls and boys alike as a child left me with some fairly deep scars.  It cut deeply into my self-esteem; it made me depressed; it made me bitter; it fostered a sense in me that I was an outcast, a pariah, a monster.  I wasn't sophisticated enough about gender dynamics, and I didn't understand my own gender issues well enough, to understand that I was being rejected, in essence, for my gender noncomformity.  I took it all very personally, and believed that I was being rejected because I was simply unlovable as a person.  Even now, as an adult,  I'm kind of a mess, riddled as I am with depression, social anxiety, poor self-esteem, and serious rejection and abandonment complexes as a result of my childhood experiences.


That's how I remember my life.  But that's not how things happened in this reality.

In this reality, as a young child, I played mostly with girls.  Once I hit kindergarten, I played exclusively with girls.  My girl friends and classmates did not reject me, because I was one of them.  I was another girl.  I was reasonably popular in elementary school.  I suffered some setbacks as a result of changing schools twice in middle school and once in high school, but it was still easy for me to meet new people and make new friends.  I was a girl just like any other girl, who wanted to hang out with other girls, and as such I was never rejected en masse for being the wrong sex, and no one thought I was strange for thinking and talking and behaving like a girl, and no one thought I had ulterior motives when I tried to strike up friendships with other girls.  I was just a normal girl with a normal social life, unremarkable among my peers.

I escaped childhood in this reality without the scars my real childhood left me.  My female self didn't have the poor self-esteem, the deep social anxiety, the profound issues with rejection and abandonment that I do.  She didn't reach adulthood with the stunted social skills, the difficulties meeting new people and making new friends, or the neediness and insecurity in her existing friendships that I have.

Thankfully, I inherited my female self's social circle, which is much wider than my own was.  I have a very healthy social life in this version of reality.  And so far, at least, I haven't managed to alienate them with my many hangups.

Having a different social circle as a child goes way beyond all of this, though.  Having different friends means I had different experiences and developed different interests.  It was my friend Ashley who got me into ballet as a child in this reality.  It was my friend Kelly who got me into techno music, which I never particularly liked in my old reality.   It's because of my friend Miranda's obsession with Jake Gyllenhaal that I own, like, ten movies starring him, movies I'd never even seen in my original reality. It's because of my friend Katie that I took Pilates for a few years.  And it's in part because I never met my childhood friends Greg and Josh in this reality that I'm not as into video games or fantasy or Gothic horror as I was in my old reality.

The people we know have ripple effects on the people we become; and because I knew different people in this reality than I knew in my old reality, I became a different person.  We human beings are porous; we are shaped by the people around us.  One of the things I've learned most clearly over the last year and a half is just how much influence the people in our lives have on the people we become.

Thursday, November 9, 2017

Dial H for Heroine 5


I've played a few games that have involved some form of flight--DC Universe Online, City of Heroes/Villains, Champions Online, the Grand Theft Auto series, the Saints Row series--and I love it.  I absolutely love flying.in video games.  I can't get enough of it.  I imagine I would love flying in the real world even more.

If I could have any superpower, I would choose shapeshifting.  Obviously.  But if shapeshifting weren't an option, I would probably choose flight.

(Shapeshifting, by the way, is one power I don't plan to bring into this series.  If John could just shapeshift back into his own body, things would be a bit too easy for him.)

~Heather

You can follow this and my other series on my series page.

Tuesday, November 7, 2017

Dial H for Heroine 4


Our first transformation... the first of many. :)

It's pure coincidence, by the way, that the models I'm using for both John and the first superheroine he's transformed into come from the show Supergirl.  I've drawn images from a wide variety of sources for this series, including TV shows, movies, and cosplay, as well as DC Comics properties, Marvel properties, and a number of miscellaneous properties.  You can expect to see John taking on a wide variety of shapes going forward.

~Heather

You can follow this and my other series on my series page.

Sunday, November 5, 2017

Dial H for Heroine 2-3

Just a little more exposition.  There will be a transformation in the next part, I promise!



This was originally meant to be one caption, but the text went long, so I had to break it into two.  That happened with a lot of the captions for this series; there's a lot going on in this story.  So I'll occasionally be doubling up captions when something I wrote as a single caption had to be broken into two.

The concept this series is based on is actually called "Dial H for H-E-R-O."  I'd thought about titling this series "Dial H for H-E-R-O-I-N-E," but I decided that would get tiresome pretty quickly.  So, instead, it's "Dial H for Heroine."

~Heather

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Saturday, November 4, 2017

A Mile in Her Shoes


It shouldn't be difficult to guess the origin of this idea.  I've wanted to write a caption that literally used walking in a woman's shoes as the transformation/possession device for quite a while; it just seems like such an obvious thing to do.  It took some time to make the idea work, though.

I'm not sure why I write so many captions about men possessing female celebrities in order to attend award ceremonies; I've written several now, and I have ideas for at least a couple more.  I guess award ceremonies just seem like peak celebrity culture.

Plus, gorgeous dresses.  Mainly gorgeous dresses.

~Heather

Friday, November 3, 2017

Dial H for Heroine 1


Welcome to my attempt at a superhero epic, Dial H for Heroine. :)

This series is based on a concept originated by DC Comics, "Dial H for Hero," but it's a fairly loose adaptation of that concept.  If you're not a comic book reader, or don't read DC Comics, don't worry; this series doesn't actually take place in the DC Universe, but in its own, completely original universe.  I'm simply borrowing the concept of "Dial H for Hero," of a device that can transform its user into a superhero with a random identity, appearance, and set of superpowers.

This series requires an unusual amount of exposition, and as such, the first couple of posts will have John, our protagonist, in his normal body.  But don't worry; John's first transformation will come on Tuesday, After that, this series is a bit of a wild ride, with dozens of individual transformations, and even more occurring offscreen.

This series will surpass The Noob as my lengthiest series, by a considerable margin.  I can't tell you exactly how long it will run, because I, uh, haven't actually finished writing it yet, lol.  As of today, I've written 67 captions in this series; I would guess it will run to about 90 captions, but that's only a guess.  It will take me several months--indeed, close to half a year--to post this entire series, so everyone should get comfy.

This is a rather action-packed series, with a lot of plot, a lot of plot twists, a lot of action, a lot of cosplay, a lot of playing around with comic book tropes, and a lot lot lot lot of transformations.  Hopefully everyone enjoys it. :)

~Heather

You can follow this and my other series on my series page.

Thursday, November 2, 2017

Humans of the Great Shift - Heather


When I found this picture, I knew I wanted to do something special with it.  This woman looks uncannily like me, after all.  Spookily like me.  She looks way more like me than that Marla Eliza Winslow woman everyone seems to think I look like.  (You guys see it, right?  I can't be the only one.)

This is a sort of gift to my past self, I guess.  A chance for her to experience what I've experienced over the last year and a halfish.  It's kind of a what-if scenario, I guess... what if the Great Shift had struck before my transformation, and I had become a woman that way?  Super self-indulgent, I know.  But it seemed like a fun idea.

I wonder if there's a version of me somewhere out in the multiverse who never actually became a woman, who's still burdened with a male body and a male social role.  If there is, I know how unhappy she must be... because I felt the same way not so long ago.  I hope someday that version of me is able to find the kind of peace that I have found as a woman.

Wednesday, November 1, 2017

Miss Doubtfire 35


This image, rather than Mrs. Doubtfire, is actually the reason I settled on Robin Williams as the model for William.  I'd already decided to use The Nanny Diaries as my primary source for images for this series, and Laura Linney is the mother in that film.  When I looked at Ms. Linney's filmography and saw that she had been in a movie with Robin Williams, that she had danced in a movie with Robin Williams, it seemed like too perfect an opportunity to pass up.

I don't think it would be easy for William and Catherine to reconcile once she discovered William had been masquerading as Ella for three months; I think she would feel hurt by William's deception.  Skipping ahead five and a half years lets me sidestep that reconciliation process and give the story a happy ending. :)

I hope everyone enjoyed this series as much as I enjoyed writing it. :)

Be sure to come back on Friday for the launch of my next series, a sprawling superhero epic called Dial H for Heroine!

~Heather

You can follow this and my other series on my series page.

Tuesday, October 31, 2017

Nightwalker


I'm kind of regretting that I didn't do a Halloween series this year like I did last year.  But here's a Halloween-themed caption. :)

~Heather

Diary - Halloween


Looking back at pictures of past Halloweens, I'm a big jealous of my female self for some of the costumes she's gotten to wear.  Here's a glimpse at one of those costumes (though the picture shows me in my Kristen Bell body, I wore it in this reality, too).  And here's the costume I wore last year.

Monday, October 30, 2017

Miss Doubtfire 34


The next-to-last chapter.  Miss Doubtfire wraps up Wednesday, and my next series will start on Friday.

~Heather

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Sunday, October 29, 2017

Humans of the Great Shift - "Lara"


I wish I'd been able to put this up on Halloween night, but the way my schedule worked out, it's going up two days early.

As a (former) transwoman, I get squeamish when men dress as women as a joke.  It feels like the joke is at the expense of transwomen, and it promotes the idea that, when a biologically male person dresses as a woman, it should be treated as a joke, as something absurd and ridiculous.  It's a touchy issue for me.

~Heather

Diary - Halloween Party


Friday, October 27, 2017

Hats Off


I learned last night that the new Mario game comes out today, and I was in a silly mood, so I decided to write up a quick caption based on one of the few things I know about Super Mario Odyssey.

I'm not a console gamer, but I do like Mario... who doesn't?  My relationship with the little guy goes way back.  As a child, my family had an Intellivision, a positively ancient console that debuted in 1979, before I was even born.  One of the games we had was Donkey Kong Jr., which had Mario as the villain.  When I was a bit older, I would play the Mario games on my friends' and cousins' Nintendos and Super Nintendos.  In college, I occasionally played one of the Smash Bros. games with some friends... whichever one would have been current in 2001ish.  And a few years ago, I got a Wii as a Christmas gift, and I bought all the Wii Mario games.

So a tip of the magic hat to my old pal Mario on his big day. :)

~Heather

Thursday, October 26, 2017

Miss Doubtfire 32


Miss Doubtfire is winding down; there are just a few chapters left.  If I've done the math right (which is a big if, lol), the last cap should go up on November 1st.  Then on to the next series.  :)

~Heather

You can follow this and my other series on my series page.

Wednesday, October 25, 2017

Humans of the Great Shift - Craig


I think the Great Shift would unsettle a lot of people's views on religion... atheists, theists, and agnostics alike.  Something like the Shift doesn't really fit neatly into any established belief system, and it also doesn't really fit into our conventional views of science.  I think it would leave everyone searching for answers.

~Heather

Diary - Self-Image


I wish I could look at those old pictures of myself and see how close I really was.  It's probably been about ten years since I drew the last one, so I don't really remember exactly what they looked like; maybe I was closer than I realize.  But, of course, they don't exist anymore; they were wiped out when my reality was altered.

I guess that's a bit sad; I put a lot of time and heart into those drawings.  But trust me, losing them is a infinitesimal price to pay for actually becoming that woman I spent so many years searching for.

~Heather

Monday, October 23, 2017

Arrival



This is the first LotDT caption I've written since December--I guess writing The Noob kind of burned me out on it?--so this is kind of a reset of it for me.  There's still a lot I want to do with this universe.

I believe it's also the first LotDT caption starring a transwoman, and I think it may be the first, except for the first caption in The Noob, that shows someone waking up in the world for the first time.

What Emily says about how LotDT allowed her a space where she could exist as a woman, and no one would know otherwise, by the way?  Playing MMORPGs, especially my primary one, did that for me as well.  It was one of the reasons I began playing it in the first place.  It gave me a place to exist as a woman, and a way to explore who I was as a woman before I, you know, actually became one; and as such I don't think it's an exaggeration to say that it might have saved my life.

~Heather

Sunday, October 22, 2017

Miss Doubtfire 30


I enjoyed writing this dream sequence.  It was fun to do something a little more abstract. :)

~Heather

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Saturday, October 21, 2017

Humans of the Great Shift - Zane

One of the uncomfortable realities of the Great Shift universe is that a lot of people would die in automobile accidents, airplane crashes, train derailments, and other disasters immediately after the Shift.  Some people would probably die from heart attacks as well, or from head injuries when the Great Shift knocks everyone unconscious, or from other accidents.  None of those people would be able to be identified; their bodies could be identified, but not the minds that inhabited those bodies.  That means a huge chunk of the population would essentially just go missing.  It would be hard to deal with the uncertainly of that if one of your loved ones was among the missing.  How would you ever get closure?

Cheery stuff, I know.

~Heather

Friday, October 20, 2017

Miss Doubtfire 29


I know he wasn't wearing this skirt suit in the previous caption.  It's a dream sequence.  Roll with it, lol.

~Heather

Diary - Externalized Internalized Transphobia



These are pictures of me from 2002, when my female self made those comments about drag queens, and when I was in absolute torment over my gender issues.  As I've mentioned before, my hair was colorful back then.

I wish I could have a conversation with my female self from back then.  I wish I could have a conversation with her now.

~Heather

Thursday, October 19, 2017

The Mighty


I wrote this before the news about Harvey Weinstein had come out.  It feels so much more relevant now.

Monday, October 16, 2017

Miss Doubtfire 27


The series page is now ever-so-briefly up-to-date.  (Don't worry, though; it will be out-of-date again when I forget to update it on Wednesday.)

~Heather 

You can follow this and my other series on my series page.