Tuesday, October 31, 2017

Nightwalker


I'm kind of regretting that I didn't do a Halloween series this year like I did last year.  But here's a Halloween-themed caption. :)

~Heather

Diary - Halloween


Looking back at pictures of past Halloweens, I'm a big jealous of my female self for some of the costumes she's gotten to wear.  Here's a glimpse at one of those costumes (though the picture shows me in my Kristen Bell body, I wore it in this reality, too).  And here's the costume I wore last year.

Monday, October 30, 2017

Miss Doubtfire 34


The next-to-last chapter.  Miss Doubtfire wraps up Wednesday, and my next series will start on Friday.

~Heather

You can follow this and my other series on my series page.

Sunday, October 29, 2017

Humans of the Great Shift - "Lara"


I wish I'd been able to put this up on Halloween night, but the way my schedule worked out, it's going up two days early.

As a (former) transwoman, I get squeamish when men dress as women as a joke.  It feels like the joke is at the expense of transwomen, and it promotes the idea that, when a biologically male person dresses as a woman, it should be treated as a joke, as something absurd and ridiculous.  It's a touchy issue for me.

~Heather

Diary - Halloween Party


Friday, October 27, 2017

Hats Off


I learned last night that the new Mario game comes out today, and I was in a silly mood, so I decided to write up a quick caption based on one of the few things I know about Super Mario Odyssey.

I'm not a console gamer, but I do like Mario... who doesn't?  My relationship with the little guy goes way back.  As a child, my family had an Intellivision, a positively ancient console that debuted in 1979, before I was even born.  One of the games we had was Donkey Kong Jr., which had Mario as the villain.  When I was a bit older, I would play the Mario games on my friends' and cousins' Nintendos and Super Nintendos.  In college, I occasionally played one of the Smash Bros. games with some friends... whichever one would have been current in 2001ish.  And a few years ago, I got a Wii as a Christmas gift, and I bought all the Wii Mario games.

So a tip of the magic hat to my old pal Mario on his big day. :)

~Heather

Thursday, October 26, 2017

Miss Doubtfire 32


Miss Doubtfire is winding down; there are just a few chapters left.  If I've done the math right (which is a big if, lol), the last cap should go up on November 1st.  Then on to the next series.  :)

~Heather

You can follow this and my other series on my series page.

Wednesday, October 25, 2017

Humans of the Great Shift - Craig


I think the Great Shift would unsettle a lot of people's views on religion... atheists, theists, and agnostics alike.  Something like the Shift doesn't really fit neatly into any established belief system, and it also doesn't really fit into our conventional views of science.  I think it would leave everyone searching for answers.

~Heather

Diary - Self-Image


I wish I could look at those old pictures of myself and see how close I really was.  It's probably been about ten years since I drew the last one, so I don't really remember exactly what they looked like; maybe I was closer than I realize.  But, of course, they don't exist anymore; they were wiped out when my reality was altered.

I guess that's a bit sad; I put a lot of time and heart into those drawings.  But trust me, losing them is a infinitesimal price to pay for actually becoming that woman I spent so many years searching for.

~Heather

Monday, October 23, 2017

Arrival



This is the first LotDT caption I've written since December--I guess writing The Noob kind of burned me out on it?--so this is kind of a reset of it for me.  There's still a lot I want to do with this universe.

I believe it's also the first LotDT caption starring a transwoman, and I think it may be the first, except for the first caption in The Noob, that shows someone waking up in the world for the first time.

What Emily says about how LotDT allowed her a space where she could exist as a woman, and no one would know otherwise, by the way?  Playing MMORPGs, especially my primary one, did that for me as well.  It was one of the reasons I began playing it in the first place.  It gave me a place to exist as a woman, and a way to explore who I was as a woman before I, you know, actually became one; and as such I don't think it's an exaggeration to say that it might have saved my life.

~Heather

Sunday, October 22, 2017

Miss Doubtfire 30


I enjoyed writing this dream sequence.  It was fun to do something a little more abstract. :)

~Heather

You can follow this and my other series on my series page.

Saturday, October 21, 2017

Humans of the Great Shift - Zane

One of the uncomfortable realities of the Great Shift universe is that a lot of people would die in automobile accidents, airplane crashes, train derailments, and other disasters immediately after the Shift.  Some people would probably die from heart attacks as well, or from head injuries when the Great Shift knocks everyone unconscious, or from other accidents.  None of those people would be able to be identified; their bodies could be identified, but not the minds that inhabited those bodies.  That means a huge chunk of the population would essentially just go missing.  It would be hard to deal with the uncertainly of that if one of your loved ones was among the missing.  How would you ever get closure?

Cheery stuff, I know.

~Heather

Friday, October 20, 2017

Miss Doubtfire 29


I know he wasn't wearing this skirt suit in the previous caption.  It's a dream sequence.  Roll with it, lol.

~Heather

Diary - Externalized Internalized Transphobia



These are pictures of me from 2002, when my female self made those comments about drag queens, and when I was in absolute torment over my gender issues.  As I've mentioned before, my hair was colorful back then.

I wish I could have a conversation with my female self from back then.  I wish I could have a conversation with her now.

~Heather

Thursday, October 19, 2017

The Mighty


I wrote this before the news about Harvey Weinstein had come out.  It feels so much more relevant now.

Monday, October 16, 2017

Miss Doubtfire 27


The series page is now ever-so-briefly up-to-date.  (Don't worry, though; it will be out-of-date again when I forget to update it on Wednesday.)

~Heather 

You can follow this and my other series on my series page.

Friday, October 13, 2017

Humans of the Great Shift - Mike


One of the harsher things you learn when you become a woman is just how much more physically vulnerable you are.  I haven't had any incidents, thank God, but I do have to think more about where I go and when I go there than I used to.

I've thought about taking a self-defense class, but I don't think I can bring myself to do it.  It's too hard to think about hurting another person, even in self-defense.

~Heather

Wednesday, October 11, 2017

The Prom Queen



As I was writing this, I was worried that it was going to turn out to be a mess, that I was trying to cram too much story into too little space.  Rereading it just now, though, I think it's better than I thought it was.

~Heather

Diary - Dead Names


All this said, I have caught myself starting to sign my blog posts as Kristen a couple of times.

~Heather (not Kristen)

Tuesday, October 10, 2017

Miss Doubtfire 24


This is the last of these caps with William in his own body.  He'll be Ella again on Thursday. :)

~Heather

You can follow this and my other series on my series page.

Monday, October 9, 2017

Humans of the Great Shift - Kenny


This is one of my favorite things about being a woman, to be honest.  I love being treated like a lady.

I loved it when J. treated me like a lady.  But I'm trying not to think too much about that.

~Heather

Sunday, October 8, 2017

Miss Doubtfire 23



Decided I probably shouldn't label this as a transformation, since William is back in his original body for this one.

~Heather

You can follow this and my other series on my series page.

Saturday, October 7, 2017

Jim-Mee


The image was suggested by a fellow capper.  I find Miley Cyrus faintly annoying, but a good image is a good image. :)

When I posted a Star Wars caption a few months ago, people expressed interest in seeing more sci-fi captions.  I'm not much of a science fiction fan, and I'm not especially familiar with the genre and its tropes.  My interest in science fiction doesn't extend much past Star Wars, Green Lantern comics, Firefly, and a few video games.  But I am trying to think of some more sci-fi-ish ideas.

Diary - What Men Want


(This was meant to go up tomorrow, at the time when I usually post my diary caps; instead I accidentally posted it in the middle of the night.  But, whatever.  I'm just going to leave it up.  I'm really really bad about "scheduling" posts but then forgetting to actually set the scheduled time.)

Sometimes it's hard to think of an appropriate picture for a diary cap.  For this one, I literally just took a picture of myself a couple of minutes after I finished writing the text for this caption.  I'm not, like, saying I'm what men want; I just needed a picture.

Or, I don't know.  Maybe I am what men want.  I'd be pretty okay with that. :)

~Heather

Friday, October 6, 2017

Miss Doubtfire 22


I'm a bit nervous about the next few days, to be honest.  William will be spending the next little bit of the story in his own body.  I think it's necessary for the story; William will be putting affairs in his normal life in order and confronting some stuff about himself.  Still, it's going to be strange to be posting captions to a TG blog with no actual TG content, and I'm honestly worried I might lose some readers to this.

 But don't worry!  Ella's coming back!  William will be Ella again on Thursday. :)

~Heather

You can follow this and my other series on my series page.

Thursday, October 5, 2017

Humans of the Great Shift - Kent


I've never quite understood why many crossdressers and some transwomen think of themselves as having a separate female persona who they talk about in the third person. I never thought of myself as being a separate person when I dressed as a woman.  I just thought of myself as... myself.

I guess it speaks to some of the differences between being a crossdresser and being trans.

~Heather

Sunday, October 1, 2017

Humans of the Great Shift - Gabe


Diary - Relapse


I checked the list of diagnoses I picked up when I visited my GP in September.  All my old diagnoses are back on the list.  Thankfully, however, the part about me suffering delusions is off the list.  That's extremely reassuring, and a huge burden off my shoulders... and it also offers me a little clue about what exactly happened to me this summer.


The fact that I haven't been diagnosed as suffering from delusions suggests to me that, in this version of reality, I didn't walk into my therapists' office two months ago saying I had a delusion of having transformed into another woman.  Which suggests, in turn, that I didn't switch bodies with a counterpart of myself living in an alternate universe where I was born looking like Kristen Bell.  Instead, it suggests that I've probably only ever lived in one universe, but that the nature of this universe has been repeatedly altered by who-knows-what.


At least, I think that's what it might mean.  This is all so confusing, and I feel like I'm in way over my head every time I try to think about it.


~Heather